Truth is, I was on a hiatus.
Rosie, the wild, no sleep getting, weekend partying, super liver having, same make up from last night wearing, high heels all day everyday wearing, Rosie.
She had to take a leave of absence. Retire. Hang up those heels.
Honestly, it was PROBABLY to recuperate and rebuild for goodness sake.
So I boycotted my blog.
I didn't want to lose the her that I was.
I knew that she was the me I liked, the me I related to, the me that... was ME.
The voice of my bubble.
The voice of my bubble.
But that old me had partied herself out, she had run herself down, and she had honestly and completely lost her energy and her writing inspirations. 26 will definitely be the year I can say I had a lifestyle change. It brought me to a certain serene state in life where I had to figure out which path I was going to hop on, which parts of me I was going to take, and which parts I was going to retire.
So, I retired Patron 3 nights a week, and Drais, and Hollywood nights, and not sleeping in my own bed, and partying on weekdays, and a whole lot of other things that trust me, I was way sad about. Yet, I know I could not handle all of that anymore. All parts of me, body, mind, and soul, had been completely over worked. My body was exhausted. My mind was too worn to function. And my soul was elated as always, but over it.
Sure, when the Hamptons come into town, when I am in Seattle or Chicago, when its someones birthday, when RICK ROZAY sends me a car to go function, or when any special occasion arises, I will find my wings again for a short period of time. But, I like that I can be happy with wine nights and book club, classy nights, home by 1am nights, and a lot of family time. I love where I am at right now. I would take my girls, good reads, my bf, and netflix ANY DAY over blurred nights and blistered feet.
Does that make me a different person?
YES
Does it mean I am not the same Rosie?
NO
Just means I'm gonna keep it classy....
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