Wednesday, November 10, 2010

my quarter life crisis......

So my MOST hated question of the year is "OH you're a college graduate? What do you plan on doing with your life next?"  Okay I understand that I am supposed to have this master plan in life and that I am technically supposed to know what to do with my life next.  I hate to break it to everyone, but I actually have NO CLUE where I want to go from here.


I know what my problem is.  I want to do too much, my  goals are scattered everywhere and I can't put them in a good enough order.  And I know a lot of people my age with the same exact problem.  Not only that, but I refuse to give up on any of those goals.  Be a business owner, go to law school, marry a rapper, go to France for a year, strip for money, live in New York for a year, go to graduate school, date a rich guy, start a business with my mom, start another business with my friends...... It's a never ending list of random things I refuse not to do in my life (I hope you can tell which ones I was serious about and which I wasn't).   Haven't you ever watched one of those stories on the news about people who take a chance and accomplish all these things because they didn't make anything impossible in their life?  I am determined for that to be me.  I refuse to give up all these random ideas of what to do with my life because I know that they aren't far fetched.  They are real enough for me to still believe I can do it.


Not only that, but I am ONLY 23.  I know I cry about it since I am halfway to my high school reunion and all, but I finished school, I am not married, I haven't popped out any babies.  Why can't society acknowledge that finishing college IS something great enough to achieve at this time in a person's life.  You know when you graduate, your supposed to feel amazingly accomplished and feel like you have done something extra great?  Well I did for about an hour. A lot of my fellow graduates didn't even make it that far.  Because right after the ceremony, then came that annoyingly difficult question, "What next?"  GEEZ, can I enjoy the fact that I JUST FINISHED BEING IN SCHOOL FOR 17 YEARS OF MY LIFE?!?  What if I want to take a two year break to explore life?  I know that statistically, my generation isn't going to even do half as great as our parents, but honestly, where else in my life have I ever been apart of the statistic?  Um, NEVER.  I am positive I won't be apart of this one either, and I only surround myself with friends and people going places.  It's just we are all about taking our time.  I am great at not following the crowd when I know I don't want to, and for that statistic, I KNOW I don't want to.


So really people, take some vicoden, wash it down with some henny, and chill the eff out.  Let me and my generation of people do what we do, and we will turn out EXACTLY how we are supposed to.  I feel that there is so much pressure from everyone for us to all be these super duper bread winners, and don't get me wrong, I love the idea, and it WILL happen.  But can I take my time please? Okay thanks.



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